Major, Career? What to do?

I am in a dilemma. I can make decisions on most things in my lift, but I can't make a decision about what I want to do. At first I want to be a doctor, but at the rate I am doing in science classes (Bs and Cs and not As) in college, I am not sure that going to med-school is even possible. Plus, if this is so, then doesn't this means that being a doctor is not the right choice for me? I am not sure what to do. I think I am good at managing things, but should I change my major to management science... If so then I really need to go talk to Career center and at least take some of the classes for management science. I feel that I am running behind in college, and if so, then I might have to take a fifth year, which means that financial aid might not even cover for me. This means that I am under a lot of pressure. Ugh!!!!! I am so frustrated.

Finals

Only two more finals left, but I am getting tired... Everyday is another day of study and another day of not trying to get distracted. This is suffering, hopefully friday will be a good day. After I finished my finals, I'll be at the airport by midnight. Yup and I will stay up until 6:25 am to be at the airplane. (I know how fun). I am going crazy and I just want to do well on my last two. I have studied really hard I think, and I hope everything will go the way I planned them.

P.S. this is also another distraction from my finals but right now I just want to do it.

LENT

Oh my gosh! Since Lent started, I had come up with 4 rules to myself. First one is to appreciate myself more. Second, go to the gym twice a week. Third, go to the market once a week (that means don't use money to buy random stuff). Lastly, study harder and won't slack off (don't go to tumblr and read psychofactz).

Brian Yi recommended that I shouldn't take a shower anymore.... I think he wanted reveal that he has not taken a shower for a week now. Furthermore, he said it feels good not do one thing for a week, then do it one time; it will feel so good. I think some of the things he said make sense.

Midterms

Gosh!!!! Midterms keep coming and I can't seem to focus on my study. My goal for this week will be: not use my phone, be on Facebook for only about 1 hour a day, and try do one thing fun for myself.

Rain shower

Today, outside my dorm, the rain kept pouring down. However, today for some reason I ran outside and just wanted to feel the rain touching my skin. My friends turned around and looked at me with this weird funny feeling. I know this is one of the reasons why I am passionately crazy.

Determination

I have determine to start blogging again and I hope this will help me write better in the future. I also want people one day will read the blogs that I will made and comment on them just for the heck of it or raise their opinions. Hmmm for now, I just want to post this... (I'm not sure if anyone even check on this old blog anymore).